it's that ancient love, that you won't outgrow

Firstly, I hope you all enjoyed Christmas as much as I did?!
A couple of days before Christmas I did manage to skid my way up to the hairdressers and do thiiiiis


I also got to see my beautiful girls, where we took a trip to the german market in Birmingham - and ate the worlds nicest garlic bread - then had a night out in my native Worcester - where we drank the worlds nicest pitchers. Why do all my adventures involve consuming food of some kind? 

Anyway, as for Christmas day itself I certainly had a beautiful day avec le fam, and ate my body weight in fruit cake and wenslydale, and realized how odd some of my family really are, and watched TV you wouldn't watch at any other time of the year, and wore an awful jumper, and took photographs of the snow (which I haven't uploaded yet because I was far too busy, you know, being festive) and ate even more food. Festive photos to come, in time.
And I know Christmas isn't about the presents but I really did receive some gorgeous presents this year, my darling being this
lomography diana f+ dreamer camera
which I have only been saving up for for, ooh, 2 years? My parents found it painful to watch, and gave in.

To be honest, the best thing about this Christmas has been being home. It sounds soppy, but what with this being the first time I've lived anywhere but the house I grew up in, it is nice to know it is always here for me to come back to. Family is what its all about really

Any Christmas revelations from you lot? Did any of you receive a favorite gift, or do something beautiful? Under one week until new years!!


how could i dance with another?

This is my best friend.

 Isn't she fantastic?

 yes, yes she is.



sleigh bells ring

...are you listening? 

Merry Christmas! 
I am so incredibly happy to be at home! I intend to rid my life of all that stress, and then never let it back in.
Hope every single one of you, my lovely hoarde of adorable subscribers (all 22 of you at last count! I can tick that off my list) has a heartwarming, beautiful christmas and a happy new year! here's to all our wishes coming true.

(all photos from tumblr, not taken by me. all to happy to give credit where due)


all the colours of benetton.

I'm not worried.
This is only, what, 3 years of my life?
Well I intend to be alive for at least another 60, please. Perspective, innit.


new and unexpected exercises in self-restraint

I'm very sorry if you are sick of my Zara-obsession.
Actually, no, I'm not. I know you love it. ;)

I'm so in love with the top on, it's unreal.

Zara Brocade Dress, £39.99
Zara Studio Dress, £89.99
Zara Printed Dress, £39.99

Also, I am so glad that this exists. It's like a Vaudeville Show inside your computer!! And if you have five minutes, and if you trust me even a little bit, you will click the above link and enjoy the visual feast that will take over your computer. Lush.

I'm off to finish my essay, then collect a parcel from the Royal Mail depot. Living on the edge. ;)


its right hard to remember that on a day like today

If there is one thing I miss about school/college, it is structure. I don't like having unstructured days, the whole floaty-student schedule thing suits some people here down to the ground but I just want to be busy busy busy all day, and I don't know why but I just really kind of miss the rigidity of it all. I don't mean it was tedious or repetitive in a monotonous way; while I certainly don't miss getting up at 7am on frosty mornings for school, even college was structured in a looser way. I should probably have known uni wouldn't feel like that!

I feel like I'm waiting, waiting for something big to happen. And there was a time when I just assumed it would be leaving home.
It wasn't.
But thats fine, of course it wouldn't be the first thing that came along.
So I'm still waiting, and actually (on good days) I'm massively excited about the future..having a job, a career, a life.

Its like there is a constant massive battle between what I should do, should say, should think, and reality. It's should vs is.
Well I realise that that has to stop. It doesn't matter what should be, there is only what IS, and think of all the potential you're missing out on because you've got your head turned the other way. Stop feeling inadequate. The past is done, and the future is a little bit scary, so the present is where your head needs to be at, the present is what you live and what you can change.
Give it time.
Stop comparing yourself to other people.
You are coping admirably.
Enjoy every second.
If we said these things to ourselves, every day, how much braver might we be?
Think how proud you're going to be, when this is over
and your life is sussed
and you're achieving the things you want
because you didn't give up
and you can look back on these days as nothing more than memories.
Hopefully, fond ones.

(If you read all this, I heart you.)


general catch up

things I am excited about right now:
the fact it is snowing, and i can hear people going batshitcrazy in it outside my window 2 re-reading the beautiful book Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathon Safran Foer which is my all time favorite book ever ever ever 3 this movie being announced 4 the fact that Benedict Cumberbatch is on the Corrie ads. As if thats a thing that happened. 5 having a little direction in life 6 reading too much into facebook status updates. (hey it makes me happy to think that post might have been about me) 7 The Rinky Dinks covering arctic monkeys "UKE look good on the dancefloor". yes. 8 knowing for once I have food in the cupboards because I remembered to shop 9 lime shower gel 10 diving into my massive duvet as soon as I finish this.

what are you excited about??